Is there something wrong with me?

you really need to see a psychiatrist, anyone on here isn't equipped to answer your questions ? and a brief summary is not enough info to diagnose your problems. i have a 20 year old daughter, diagnosed bi polar, and borderline personality disorder. and although Ive researched both. your symptoms share only some characteristics with hers. but everyone suffers differently. I'm pretty certain that your behavior would be considered alarming by professionals and your friends. so if you are uninsured, call your department of mental health in your state and they can refer you to free providers. my prayers are with you, and i would like to ask that no matter how hard it may seem, please relate this story to your mom or closest true friend. don't suffer through this alone !